This past weekend, we celebrated one of my best friend’s birthday with a couple’s dinner at Distrito at The Saguaro. (Don’t mind me being the only one looking at the other camera!)
That isn’t to say the past few weekends have been uneventful; I realize all has been quiet on the blogging front for a bit. Besides the fact that I’ve been busy sending the magazine I manage to print and updating my website (shameless plug to mozy on over and stay tuned for more!) I must confess that sometimes, I just feel over it. I find myself not wanting to share things if the photos aren’t good enough. I find myself a little less “there” at events or out with friends if I’m busy Instagramming. And I find myself drained at the end of the day to write…more than I’m already doing so on a daily basis. Especially when it comes to sharing something fresh, new. It’s a constant battle really; pour hours into a post that may get zero response. Pour not enough effort in and you hate yourself for it.
So where is this coming from? I was questioned by a reader for the last Giveaway I hosted…and it really got to me. To be fair, she was totally upfront and nice about it. But the questioning made me wonder why I would bother to do it again? I did not get compensated for this particular giveaway, so the time I put into writing the post, promoting it, choosing a winner, etc. is all…just because. I don’t really get anything out of it. So to be made feel like I owed someone something, really just made me not want to do it again.
I welcome criticism on my blog. In fact, I get a little thrill when someone disagrees and we can share our opinions in a healthy way. My blog post on Trash the Dress photoshoots has gotten a ton of comments about people agreeing or disagreeing about the trend and it’s great! But I didn’t start a blog to feel like….a slave to it. And sometimes, that’s how it feels. Guilt if I don’t post, guilt if I didn’t photoshop enough, and now guilt about a misinterpretation? It’s just more than I need.
I am not a photographer, a graphic designer, a YouTube video star or a model. That’s not even why I started this blog. I’m just a writer. Sometimes, I do fun things that are neat to share. Sometimes, I get free stuff that’s neat to share. And sometimes, I meet some fascinating people who are totally inspiring and whose interviews are also neat to share. That’s it. It’s also great to shine the spotlight on those that are doing cool things in the community.
So, if that’s cool with you…maybe I’ll be seeing you around for more….